I'm sleepy and The Boyfriend is waiting for me...
But I HAD to wait for my external hard drive
to do its compressing business...and in the meantime, why not watch some YouTube videos...?....because I can't stop - I love seeing so many projects and ideas! (and it TOTALLY beats 16 and Pregnant and DOG: The Bounty Hunter.)
Also, everybody is SO encouraging and supportive of MY videos...THANK YOU!!!
It gives me a welcoming sense of community that is kinda foreign to me...It also makes me feel like the stuff I make is worth "advertising," even if it isn't anything terribly interesting.
Life is so freaking hard...every day is a new battle (I used to say "challenge," but it's much harder than that.) All your nice comments and messages mean so much to me!
I'm being very cheesy - sorry. It's 2:32 AM - I don't think you can blame me.
My original point was going to be that I *look* at so many inspiring things....It paralyzes me.
I want to do it ALL.
I want to do it all PERFECTLY.
And, if I can't dot it PERFECTLY, I don't want to do it at all.
My mom likes to tell me how annoying my perfectionism has always been so I think I'm stuck with it...
I also don't know what exactly I WANT to do.
If you don't know what you want....it's pretty much impossible to get *it* - you don't just stumble upon your meaning in life.
In other news, I am working on knitting a blanket - the "Blue Lagoon" color pattern. Thanks to my mom, I was able to order the rest of the yarn
I need from Joann.com today.I'm also making a warsh-rag
for The Boyfriend in Lily's 100% cotton yarn - in red
and black
cause he's a * rock star * and that's his band's colors...I guess.By the way, I'm not the greatest girlfriend on Earth - and although I'm SURE he's the greatest drummer EVER...his music doesn't do much for me...but he seems to like me anyway.
I'm working on birthday/going away presents for my BFF and her family as well...before they ABANDON ME!!!!!
(I'm still in my "anger" phase of grieving. Harrumph.)
Besides that stuff - and a gazillion other in progress projects - I'm reading Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life
and liking it a lot!
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